Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Friday, July 9, 2010
Life
Why does life get in the way of everything? Why do I keep putting off things I know I should be doing? I get so caught up in the moment that I can't see the big picture.
It was an emotional unsettling couple of days. Decisions needed to be made in a very short time period. I miss my best friend. I need to talk things out and family is good for that, but my friend... my friend and I have drifted apart it seems. And I don't know what to do. How do you tell someone they're your best friend and not know who you are to them. Shouldn't that be reciprocated? Maybe it's like the mini version of saying I love you?
Anyway... So I'm moving again. But not the big move as always talked about. It's still a thought. Just not as dominanting as it has been in the past. I'm moving to south county... closer to work, closer to stone. And I'm not living alone as I had anticipated for so long. This is probably the most unsettling. I think i had my mind made up that I was going to live alone, but an opportunity arose and now i'm not. surprise! I keep having to tell myself this is a good idea, this is going to work. I sure hope so.
I'm reading John Adams right now. I've been trying to get through it for awhile now. I just don't feel like I have the time to get it done. I think my favorite part of this book is the letters. I've always been a sucker for mail. Real mail. But the relationship between Abigail and John in letters is just amazing. They don't see eachother, yet they still have this very intimate relationship. It gives me hope I think. That there is passion like that out there. It gives me hope it still exists. I also like knowing there have always been fickle friends. Jefferson and Adams... are they friends, are they not? Daily it seems to change.
It was an emotional unsettling couple of days. Decisions needed to be made in a very short time period. I miss my best friend. I need to talk things out and family is good for that, but my friend... my friend and I have drifted apart it seems. And I don't know what to do. How do you tell someone they're your best friend and not know who you are to them. Shouldn't that be reciprocated? Maybe it's like the mini version of saying I love you?
Anyway... So I'm moving again. But not the big move as always talked about. It's still a thought. Just not as dominanting as it has been in the past. I'm moving to south county... closer to work, closer to stone. And I'm not living alone as I had anticipated for so long. This is probably the most unsettling. I think i had my mind made up that I was going to live alone, but an opportunity arose and now i'm not. surprise! I keep having to tell myself this is a good idea, this is going to work. I sure hope so.
I'm reading John Adams right now. I've been trying to get through it for awhile now. I just don't feel like I have the time to get it done. I think my favorite part of this book is the letters. I've always been a sucker for mail. Real mail. But the relationship between Abigail and John in letters is just amazing. They don't see eachother, yet they still have this very intimate relationship. It gives me hope I think. That there is passion like that out there. It gives me hope it still exists. I also like knowing there have always been fickle friends. Jefferson and Adams... are they friends, are they not? Daily it seems to change.
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